Hey guys,
So I finished my exams a little while ago now and I can honestly say how happy I am that they are over. I know I still have so many more exams to go through but currently I feel relieved.
I found out that I am crap at handling stress and it had really negative effects on me. I couldn't sleep very well- to be fair I still cant but I am blaming part of the issue to exam stress. I constantly had the butterfly feeling in my stomach when I did anything which really didn't help me concentrate on my revision or anything meaning that surely I would get worse results beginning a spiral of worry and stress.
I took my maths exam a year early and got a grade below what I was expected because I was crying and a massive mess before I even went into the exam hall so couldn't really concentrate on doing the exam and I still dont know how I got the grade I did- pure luck, I guess!
Anyway, after the scene of last year I decided to take a step out of my comfort zone and ask for help in dealing with my stress this year as I clearly couldn't do it alone. For some weird reason I am always ashamed to say that I went to therapy. However, it is nothing to be ashamed of as everyone deals with things differently and I just needed a little bit of help to get me into the same position as everyone else and that is ok!
He helped me to cope with my own stress and also to gain confidence- I had hypnotherapy for anyone interested and it was a really weird experience and I am happy to go further into it in a different post.
Really, the reason I wanted to write this was to say that if you are struggling with stress about anything or if you are really worried about something and it is making you feel shitty then there is no shame in getting help to deal with it. I also think tat the exam system is crap for making me have to go to therapy just to get through it but whatever.
I am so glad that I went to therapy though because I was able to concentrate more in the exam hall and there were no tears this time before any exams!
Ta-ta!xxx
